I'm sorry for your loss. That can't be easy. Do you still wonder if you could have done something?

No. I know there wasn't anything anyone could have done or said. It's a hard realization to come to but in this case, it was also understandable. He was HIV+ and near the end as it was, and he wanted to go while he still had control. I only wish he'd let me say goodbye. I still have the jewelry he gave me, the odd little bits of clothing he made for me. He was a window dresser for the big department stores in downtown Boston and adored fashion. I miss him all the time. I wear the ring he gave me when I feel him around me.

Have at it.