why is it so important to you that other people might have experienced something similar?

It's not. I just can't help what I see.

I certainly don't go looking for it. I don't need the reminders, I don't need or want it on my mind. But it's like trying to look at a color and not recognize it. You know blue is blue just by seeing it, not thinking about it. It can be like that.

Have at it.