Have you ever tried suicide? you don't seem like the type

My opinion on it is, you don't try.
You either do it or you don't.

Anything else is a gesture, telling the world you're going down and you need help -- but that you don't WANT to die, even if living has become intolerable.

Working in emergency medical services pretty much showed me all this in starkest reality.

I'm still here.

Have at it.